So I just got ‘fired’ from my job. Long story, but it is what it is. I truly hope the best for the company, I wholeheartedly believe in the product and plan to work with them on a freelance basis for sure. But I suppose I lost a bit of enthusiasm over the past few months. Probably has a lot to do with my personal situation. Not good financially, coming off a long and arduous year of a rocky relationship that ended in epicly hurtful fashion, live alone in the hills so don’t really have much interaction with humanity these days. But something about getting fired was ok with me. Granted I haven’t been fired from a gig since Trader Joes in high school, but still, I was okay with it.
Not sure what I’m going to do, so some would say I’m crazy. I had a job where I was getting paid while working from home on what was supposed to be photography with close to no oversight at all. Yeah, sounds crazy, but for some reason I’m slight relieved. Felt I was getting dragged into a certain energy that I was around before and didn’t want to go back down that route…an energy where most of what is important is lost in the capitalistic non-stop no-end pace that only leads to ulcers, heart attacks and cancer. Have seen it too many times, don’t want to end up there, and I know there are more important things in life and I’d rather be around the energy that will nurture that. And right now, the only energy nurturing that side of me are the photos and the processing.
It’s truly a blessing when you’re doing something that actually feels right and you get to a point where you can start to discern what feels right and what doesn’t for yourself…you can actually pay attention to your gut and not pass it off. This Yosemite trip was a blessing and I can truly say that I haven’t felt as ‘in the zone’ as I have the past few days in the moments I’ve had a chance to sit and play with and process some of these images. The feedback from G+ and FB and 500px are just fueling my fire and it feels good to care about something like this again. And the fact that some of my images were accepted into Dreamstime.com stock photo site were just another little boost of confidence. Then that mention of one of my images on This Week In Photo podcast was a high for sure. And the fact that Megan Racing was happy with my work and will be hiring me for more photos is a boost. Hell, I look back and it’s actually been a damn good month for me in the photography regards. If I didn’t write all this down, I’m not sure I would have recognized that there’s some momentum behind some of what I’m doing.
I actually feel better now than I did before beginning this post.
Ahh…the power of the blog.
Anyhow, here’s one from the Yosemite trip that made me feel good while processing today. ‘a slice of yosemite layer cake.’